Monday, December 21, 2009

Tough decision

Roswell did not have a good weekend. She has not come out of her kennel; I have to give her water and food in there, and she doesn't always drink. Today she hasn't stopped shaking, her nose is cracked from dehydration, and she has multiple sores around her body, including a bloody nose. So it was with great difficulty that we decided to put her down tonight. We plan on burying her cremated remains under her favorite tree in the backyard.

Intellectually, I know that it is the best decision, but emotionally it was really hard to make the call. Was it too soon? Will she have better days ahead? The doggie dermatologist told me today she thought it was the best decision; there's no hope it will get better, and that thought helps. A little.

The image at the top is a card I bought yesterday. It made me smile, so I thought I'd share it. It's a Compendium card that I got at a local store called The Woods. I'm grateful for words and images that encapsulate so perfectly how I feel.

3 comments:

desi said...

I know the pain your heart must be suffering right now. And the idea that you've done the best thing for your loved one, isn't always so reassuring. I'm praying you and your family will find an extra measure of peace this Christmas season. {hugs} for your loss.

Steph said...

I went through the same thing four months ago. I still come home expecting him--Max--to be waiting by the door, but I know that I made the right decision, and I'm sure you did as well. I hope that you get through the holidays without too much suffering.

Steff said...

Jennifer, I'm so sorry about Roswell. I wanted to cry just reading your post. I know how your heart must ache. My thoughts and prayers are with you as your family grieves for your loss.